D Missed Call!!!!

Missed call???

From an unknown no.???  And that too at 8:00 A.M.??

From past few days I was thinking to write something. But, was not getting on which topic. Yesterday, a concept came to my mind and I started writing on it. But life…..hell it is a lot complicated and unexpected, sometimes it gives you a topic itself. And the same happened with me this morning, the morning of 08/09/2012 is the one I cannot forget in my life now. Continuing with the missed call……….  

Well that’s early for me!!!!!!If its some of ma friend playing a prank again, am gonna kill him for disturbing the sleep which seldom comes to me, although you can find me sleeping anytime, anywhere. Well, am not here for discussing my sleeping habits. Getting back to the ‘missed call’, I glanced the no. for  quite a time with my sleepy eyes unable to recognize it, I slept again waiting for the call again to ring on my phone.

I ‘woke’ up at 9:30 and of course it was in the morning. Acc. To my capacity it could have been p.m. no doubt about it but yes my ‘maiyya’ would have killed me. But its been nearly 2 hrs. no trace of the caller yet. Perhaps somebody might have dialed ma no. by mistake, when realized its wrong might have disconnected. I hope it would have been so simple, and I would have been not feeling what I am feeling right now, and perhaps would not have been writing this.

So, I kept the phone aside hoping that maybe it was a wrong no. or any of those foolish friends of mine are playing a prank on me, let them do it again this time I am going to teach them a lesson so that they will not even dare to think of disturbing me so early in the morning. But u know curiosity……..Till today I had only heard ‘curiosity is the mother of all inventions’ but experienced it today because curiosity is the mother of me writing this today. By this time the thought process had started who could it be. And naturally every guy would think that it should be a girl. But who could it be, of course not somebody am not knowing. Can it be ‘JQ’ or ‘D Unknown’, well might be possible that after a year ‘JQ’ might have realized that she misunderstood me, but how is this possible when we met last time in an open campus she acted as if we are completely strangers, so ‘JQ’ ruled out. Talking about ‘D Unknown’ well in past 15 days after I was out from hospital she didn’t care to call me once or even text me once how I was???So this also ruled out and frankly I had wanted that the number should have been of anyone from these two. Inspite of ruling out all the possibilities, I was just praying a miracle to happen. But it was not a movie, or if they happen in real lives too not in my life atleast. For those who are thinking who are these two ‘ladies’, they are just not to b thought about and yes there were a couple of miracles in my life but not to be discussed here.

After fiddling with my phone in a dilemma whether to call or not.  I decided to take a chance. With a bit of excitement & suspense I called the number and with each ring it quadrupled. Atlast there came a voice, a voice of an elderly woman, never heard before. All the excitement died. But when the other lady introduced herself to me, I FROZE……, DON’T KNOW HOW MANY HEART BEATS WERE MISSED…….& I  HAD GOOSEBUMPS. Was this real or my imagination, and whatever it was why after such a long time. I was blank, I didn’t know how to react. So the first wordz that came out of my mouth were R U REALLY……. & yes,  It was ‘her’ mom. It has been more than two years now she is not with us & yet an unsaid as well as hidden part of everyone’s life whomsoever she had touched. She was an inevitable part of our livez, yet we never in d next two years of our college life had discussed about her. To me, she was like an encryption very much a part of the stone on which it was written but covered by the sands of time. And today, the sands were removed. The truth which is still unable to accept atleast for me was standing before me making me realize that life is really very much unexpected.

The same feeling which I had gone through on that day of June,2010. We were returning from college and were in quite jolly a good mood. Enjoying and shouting in our bus which was quite like an everyday schedule. When a friend of mine came to us, and she told us that now ‘she’ was not with us. Yes, she was absent that day, but that doesn’t mean that anyone could make a fool out of me, I thought. So, at first, the statement was discarded outrightly. But the expression on murgi’s face, the girl who announced the news, said something else. Noway, this can’t be true, this is impossible but the look was still ominous which made me all the more worried. With trembling hands, I took out my mobile and was frantically dialing some numbers, but every number I dialed either came busy or out of coverage area or there was no reply. Tension was building up in the air, so we decided to drop by her hostel. We took a drop at a place which was nearest to her hostel. From there it was 10-15 mins. Walk. With each step taken forward, I prayed that nothing should have happened to her. I thought only one thing that perhaps she’ll meet us in the hostel perfectly alright and then we will come to know that it was a prank played by a friend of ours.

For what happened next you first need to know who ‘she’ was i.e. why am writing this. Well dating back to September 2008, last week of the month. Well from past immemorial my rapport with gals have not been good whether take it my first crush or ma cousin sister(6 months younger to me) or take it my real sister (8 years younger!!!!) . Ofcourse talked occasionally but when I needed some notes or like these things. You may think “HOW MEAN” I WAS….But yes, that was the truth. Well the experience is that you are excited too and at the same time worried that what is going to come. And then one fine day we were introduced. I, throughout my life had been a backbencher, so the legacy had to follow in the college also. We, (Me and Sid, bitter rivals cum good friends till XII, the rival part being removed in the college) used to sit on the second last bench and she along with her friend sat at the last. So, as the time passed we became good friends. The funniest moment with her was when in our first college fest, she along with her two friends did make up on Sid. It was really hilarious. The only regret which I hold about the incident was none of us had a mobile with a camera, would have loved to click his picture then and upload it on orkut. Well fb had entered the arena but no one was that much into fb, Orkut was our whole sole entertainer. Anyways, missed the moment, still regret it. Then our group of 6 7 people used to bunk together, do lunches together and used to do a loads of fun. Also we never had a fight, which was pretty strange when it comes to me coz when it comes to girls I should have atleast a fight, well as I said earlier always there is ego clash. Anyways, shared a very good friendship together. But after first year it showed a decline, the main reason was by the end of first semester my group was changed coz had a fight with a member of my previous group, well the reason still unknown. So, got pretty much busy with the new group and was not aware what was going on ‘her’ life.

Was that d biggest blunder that I could have committed? Still no answers. And her grades fell in the third semester. And she was a good student so it was pretty shocking for me too. Well our conversations were then just confined to hello, hi. And days rolled smoothly with no such big event taking place. Then came ‘that’ day which I wish would never have come or if got a chance could change it.

Coming back to the call, aunty started crying while talking to me. And never in my life I had felt so helpless. A mother was crying for the demise of her daughter after 2 years, and why not she is going to miss her lifetime, and yet I could not do anything. What could I possibly have done, console….hell no how could I have consoled her when even ‘her’ mention disturbs me. Well after talking for 5-10 mins. And asking how uncle & ‘her’ younger sister were, the conversation ended. The incident had disturbed the whole family and they are still in shock. The motive of the call was that if I could provide ‘her’ mom with the slightest evidence of what was the reason behind her demise, but I failed in doing that too, more helplessness surrounded me.

Talking about ‘that’ day further, with each step I was praying to God that a miracle should happen & it all ends up in a joke. But, as I said my life hates miracle. And the information was correct, she was not with us anymore. I had lost one of ma sweetest friends. There were many questions in my mind. The biggest one was Y??? But there were no answers. For months, I was not able to accept that anything like this could have happened. Had she told any of us once if there was any problem , none of us would had let it happen.

Today also a part of me still refuses to accept that ‘she’ is not with us today, hoping might be someday her text would come on my mobile. Surrounded by d loneliness of this night when those memories come to my mind, it makes me feel all the more lonely. But I just hope wherever she is today, she might be happy. And yes, she is an integral part of my life & will always remain so. And I really miss that perhaps one of the sweetest persons in the world, who would have never even dreamt of someone’s bad, today is not amongst us. And wherever ‘she’ is, whether listening or not what I want to say, I would like to end up with the quote

“DEAR FRIEND I MISS U & U WOULD HOLD A PLACE IN MA HEART AS LONG AS AM ALIVE”