Missed call???
From an unknown
no.??? And that too at 8:00 A.M.??
From past few days I
was thinking to write something. But, was not getting on which topic.
Yesterday, a concept came to my mind and I started writing on it. But
life…..hell it is a lot complicated and unexpected, sometimes it gives you a
topic itself. And the same happened with me this morning, the morning of
08/09/2012 is the one I cannot forget in my life now. Continuing with the
missed call……….
Well that’s early for
me!!!!!!If its some of ma friend playing a prank again, am gonna kill him for
disturbing the sleep which seldom comes to me, although you can find me
sleeping anytime, anywhere. Well, am not here for discussing my sleeping
habits. Getting back to the ‘missed call’, I glanced the no. for quite a time with my sleepy eyes unable to
recognize it, I slept again waiting for the call again to ring on my phone.
I ‘woke’ up at 9:30 and
of course it was in the morning. Acc. To my capacity it could have been p.m. no
doubt about it but yes my ‘maiyya’ would have killed me. But its been nearly 2
hrs. no trace of the caller yet. Perhaps somebody might have dialed ma no. by
mistake, when realized its wrong might have disconnected. I hope it would have
been so simple, and I would have been not feeling what I am feeling right now,
and perhaps would not have been writing this.
So, I kept the phone
aside hoping that maybe it was a wrong no. or any of those foolish friends of
mine are playing a prank on me, let them do it again this time I am going to
teach them a lesson so that they will not even dare to think of disturbing me
so early in the morning. But u know curiosity……..Till today I had only heard
‘curiosity is the mother of all inventions’ but experienced it today because
curiosity is the mother of me writing this today. By this time the thought
process had started who could it be. And naturally every guy would think that
it should be a girl. But who could it be, of course not somebody am not
knowing. Can it be ‘JQ’ or ‘D Unknown’, well might be possible that after a
year ‘JQ’ might have realized that she misunderstood me, but how is this
possible when we met last time in an open campus she acted as if we are
completely strangers, so ‘JQ’ ruled out. Talking about ‘D Unknown’ well in past
15 days after I was out from hospital she didn’t care to call me once or even
text me once how I was???So this also ruled out and frankly I had wanted that
the number should have been of anyone from these two. Inspite of ruling out all
the possibilities, I was just praying a miracle to happen. But it was not a
movie, or if they happen in real lives too not in my life atleast. For those
who are thinking who are these two ‘ladies’, they are just not to b thought
about and yes there were a couple of miracles in my life but not to be
discussed here.
After fiddling with my
phone in a dilemma whether to call or not.
I decided to take a chance. With a bit of excitement & suspense I
called the number and with each ring it quadrupled. Atlast there came a voice,
a voice of an elderly woman, never heard before. All the excitement died. But
when the other lady introduced herself to me, I FROZE……, DON’T KNOW HOW MANY
HEART BEATS WERE MISSED…….& I HAD
GOOSEBUMPS. Was this real or my imagination, and whatever it was why after such
a long time. I was blank, I didn’t know how to react. So the first wordz that
came out of my mouth were R U REALLY……. & yes, It was ‘her’ mom. It has been more than two
years now she is not with us & yet an unsaid as well as hidden part of
everyone’s life whomsoever she had touched. She was an inevitable part of our
livez, yet we never in d next two years of our college life had discussed about
her. To me, she was like an encryption very much a part of the stone on which
it was written but covered by the sands of time. And today, the sands were
removed. The truth which is still unable to accept atleast for me was standing
before me making me realize that life is really very much unexpected.
The same feeling which
I had gone through on that day of June,2010. We were returning from college and
were in quite jolly a good mood. Enjoying and shouting in our bus which was
quite like an everyday schedule. When a friend of mine came to us, and she told
us that now ‘she’ was not with us. Yes, she was absent that day, but that
doesn’t mean that anyone could make a fool out of me, I thought. So, at first,
the statement was discarded outrightly. But the expression on murgi’s face, the
girl who announced the news, said something else. Noway, this can’t be true,
this is impossible but the look was still ominous which made me all the more
worried. With trembling hands, I took out my mobile and was frantically dialing
some numbers, but every number I dialed either came busy or out of coverage
area or there was no reply. Tension was building up in the air, so we decided
to drop by her hostel. We took a drop at a place which was nearest to her
hostel. From there it was 10-15 mins. Walk. With each step taken forward, I
prayed that nothing should have happened to her. I thought only one thing that
perhaps she’ll meet us in the hostel perfectly alright and then we will come to
know that it was a prank played by a friend of ours.
For what happened next
you first need to know who ‘she’ was i.e. why am writing this. Well dating back
to September 2008, last week of the month. Well from past immemorial my rapport
with gals have not been good whether take it my first crush or ma cousin sister(6
months younger to me) or take it my real sister (8 years younger!!!!) .
Ofcourse talked occasionally but when I needed some notes or like these things.
You may think “HOW MEAN” I WAS….But yes, that was the truth. Well the
experience is that you are excited too and at the same time worried that what
is going to come. And then one fine day we were introduced. I, throughout my
life had been a backbencher, so the legacy had to follow in the college also.
We, (Me and Sid, bitter rivals cum good friends till XII, the rival part being
removed in the college) used to sit on the second last bench and she along with
her friend sat at the last. So, as the time passed we became good friends. The
funniest moment with her was when in our first college fest, she along with her
two friends did make up on Sid. It was really hilarious. The only regret which
I hold about the incident was none of us had a mobile with a camera, would have
loved to click his picture then and upload it on orkut. Well fb had entered the
arena but no one was that much into fb, Orkut was our whole sole entertainer.
Anyways, missed the moment, still regret it. Then our group of 6 7 people used
to bunk together, do lunches together and used to do a loads of fun. Also we
never had a fight, which was pretty strange when it comes to me coz when it
comes to girls I should have atleast a fight, well as I said earlier always
there is ego clash. Anyways, shared a very good friendship together. But after
first year it showed a decline, the main reason was by the end of first
semester my group was changed coz had a fight with a member of my previous
group, well the reason still unknown. So, got pretty much busy with the new
group and was not aware what was going on ‘her’ life.
Was that d biggest
blunder that I could have committed? Still no answers. And her grades fell in
the third semester. And she was a good student so it was pretty shocking for me
too. Well our conversations were then just confined to hello, hi. And days
rolled smoothly with no such big event taking place. Then came ‘that’ day which
I wish would never have come or if got a chance could change it.
Coming back to the
call, aunty started crying while talking to me. And never in my life I had felt
so helpless. A mother was crying for the demise of her daughter after 2 years,
and why not she is going to miss her lifetime, and yet I could not do anything.
What could I possibly have done, console….hell no how could I have consoled her
when even ‘her’ mention disturbs me. Well after talking for 5-10 mins. And
asking how uncle & ‘her’ younger sister were, the conversation ended. The
incident had disturbed the whole family and they are still in shock. The motive
of the call was that if I could provide ‘her’ mom with the slightest evidence
of what was the reason behind her demise, but I failed in doing that too, more
helplessness surrounded me.
Talking about ‘that’
day further, with each step I was praying to God that a miracle should happen
& it all ends up in a joke. But, as I said my life hates miracle. And the
information was correct, she was not with us anymore. I had lost one of ma
sweetest friends. There were many questions in my mind. The biggest one was
Y??? But there were no answers. For months, I was not able to accept that
anything like this could have happened. Had she told any of us once if there
was any problem , none of us would had let it happen.
Today also a part of me
still refuses to accept that ‘she’ is not with us today, hoping might be
someday her text would come on my mobile. Surrounded by d loneliness of this
night when those memories come to my mind, it makes me feel all the more
lonely. But I just hope wherever she is today, she might be happy. And yes, she
is an integral part of my life & will always remain so. And I really miss
that perhaps one of the sweetest persons in the world, who would have never
even dreamt of someone’s bad, today is not amongst us. And wherever ‘she’ is, whether
listening or not what I want to say, I would like to end up with the quote
“DEAR
FRIEND I MISS U & U WOULD HOLD A PLACE IN MA HEART AS LONG AS AM ALIVE”
