Change in D meaning

Wen I strtd dis blog I tht dat d title'End of  d Dayzz' wld b d mst appropiate & I wrote it wth d impression dat 1 fine day Evrythin endzz wther its us or d feelinsor d memories.Bt nw wth d tides of tym I m realizin dat der is no end.Wthr Its d prsn or d feelingz dey alwayz remain in ur hrt and wtevr u try u cn nvr eraz dem.Dey r immortal.
Recently I trnd 21,I ws jst sittin pondring & sddnly realizd dat d tym hs jst flwn away lik anythin.Jst sm tym back v wer in d tym wen luv mnt mom's hug,wrst enemies wer d bros & sis & dat 2 4 few mins.,wen d only thng dat cld hrt wer d wonded knees,a fnd cld only use 4u 4 borrowin pencils bt v all knw dat tym has wings and dat dayzz r gone and sadly wld nvr rtrn.
Lif was really a joyride still wen v grew up 2 yng teenagrs and till I ws in rtm ,d 'msti' wch v used 2 hav,d playin of crktt at sandy's house wth 10 wkts 4 both of us,and still lots of fun.I tht tht those memories cn easily b forgotten bt dos memories r vry mch a prt of me 2day also & will remain 4evr .
In des 'flown years' lif has cmpltly changed its meang & nw jst a year lft 4 d graduation der lurks a hiddn fear in bck of d mind of d future 2 cme ,questns hows it goin 2 be,with all d cmmotion evrywhere will i b existin with the few who still really luv me????
& d questns r all unansred bt 1 thng dat I realized dat how hrd u try
SM MEMORIES CN NEVA B ERASED!!!!!!!!!







 

Addiction

Its sd dat & I also b4 a few mnths usd 2 thnk dat luv ws d most addictiv thng 2 happn bt des few mnths hav chngd my thts cmpletly. Addiction cn b of a prsn 2 yt nt luv.How dis happnd yet its impossible 4 me 2 undrstnd.Smtymz I jst sit alone & try 2 jst ponder wts dis is it jst infactuatin or luv or anythin else & d ans, I gt is jst its 'd addiction'.And being luv d mst addictive thng till mrch of 2011 I ws wth it.

Bt suddenly der was a flash anywayz dis' flash' entrd ma lif in strtin of feb bt it strtd showin its efect during march mid & april strtin.Its jst amazin how jst smbdy u did'nt evn thnk of maks suddn reentry in ur lif & zoop! gts mixed up wth u lik salt in water lik u knew each othr frm yrs & yrs bt dis is only ma syd of story.Dat syd der ws nthin lik dat feelin wt i thnk.It ws 'Jst Frnz' ,d mst cmmn wrd 2 show 'Dnt dare 2 thnk anythin lik dat'.

And den aftr few weeks jst gets vanished frm ur lif or remains bt jst in ur thts & jst showin sm gestres well I m here smwhere.

I am nt here 2 blame dat prsn bt smtyms I jst fail 2 undrstnd smtyms sm people jst cum in ur lif trans4ms it or tun it arnd 180 degrees and den jst fail 2 undrstnd wt dey hv done to our lives........

I thnk addiction of othr types r far bttr dan dis type wen its of luv u r on d svnth sky or of any othr lik drugs etc. u cn tk d dosage any tym u want or u 2 hav d rehab cntrs 4 u.Bt in dis u r jst restless,frustrtd; smbdy's playin on ur mind wthout der physical presence in ur lif & d hell u can't do anythin.

Well I thnk probably D 1 sittin above jst wntd 2 show me dat 'BOY! dus is wt is calld addiction'!!!!!

And d wst part is I m hatin it lik a hell & yet cnt do anythin abt it!!!

Well 

DIS IS 'ADDICTION' & IS GOIN 2 B WTH ME ALL MA LIF SO ITS BTTR I SHLD JST ACCEPT IT & JST TRY 2 LIV WTH IT IN A POSITIVE MANNR

 

I Luv U

Dat day I wnted 2 cnfess smthin 2 hr bt knew vry well she wld definitly walk away frm ma lif as soon she wld cme 2 knw at dis....
well she ain't a prt 2day also bt yet is a part a vry imp. part!!
Dis is 4 her
I knw dat u luv advntrs bt ma bst adventre ws wen I met u,
& u r crazy abt sft toyz 2 bt cn bet non cn b as cute as u,
& d chocolates(Bournville,silk) trn on d bst in u bt der stnds no chnc dat dey cn b as sweet as u,
So darlin I jst wanna say dat I luv U & I wanna spend ma whole lif wth u & only u............